Guilt
Byrun stirs in his quarters. The night was restless. Cold. Lonely. He stands; it's early dawn and he makes his way to the Drunken Dragon. He places an order with hin woman and sits a table looking out the window.
She has given me everything I asked for and more. I've never experienced anything like this before in my life. It is complete. It is unconditional. It's... amazing. I am in love with this woman.
Her place is with me and mine is with her.
She has risked everything for me. I've learned so much about the people in the Valley. Their thoughts on my Family as well as their plots against it. My only regret is that it's information from those that should seek me in common cause. I don't think there is a common cause in the Valley anymore. It might come down to sitting back, digging in, and picking up the pieces later.
Byrun rubs his temples. The conversation from earlier that night playing over in his mind.
"After the things I've done for others, I would like a little trust and acceptance."
"You speak of the foundations of love, yet you reject love itself."
"I don't reject love."
"You rejected mine!"
Guilt was something I've learned to ignore. I've learned to shut it out. It stopped being an emotion and became a monster... a shadow that haunted my dreams. It was easier that way. Killing is a remorseless act. As it should be. The shadows of guilt can stay a warrior's hand it it's needed the most.
The things is... I'm not always a warrior.
The young hin chimes in. "Yer food is ready, Commander." Byrun closes his book and grabs the two meals and heads upstairs.
Byrun stirs in his quarters. The night was restless. Cold. Lonely. He stands; it's early dawn and he makes his way to the Drunken Dragon. He places an order with hin woman and sits a table looking out the window.
She has given me everything I asked for and more. I've never experienced anything like this before in my life. It is complete. It is unconditional. It's... amazing. I am in love with this woman.
Her place is with me and mine is with her.
She has risked everything for me. I've learned so much about the people in the Valley. Their thoughts on my Family as well as their plots against it. My only regret is that it's information from those that should seek me in common cause. I don't think there is a common cause in the Valley anymore. It might come down to sitting back, digging in, and picking up the pieces later.
Byrun rubs his temples. The conversation from earlier that night playing over in his mind.
"After the things I've done for others, I would like a little trust and acceptance."
"You speak of the foundations of love, yet you reject love itself."
"I don't reject love."
"You rejected mine!"
Guilt was something I've learned to ignore. I've learned to shut it out. It stopped being an emotion and became a monster... a shadow that haunted my dreams. It was easier that way. Killing is a remorseless act. As it should be. The shadows of guilt can stay a warrior's hand it it's needed the most.
The things is... I'm not always a warrior.
The young hin chimes in. "Yer food is ready, Commander." Byrun closes his book and grabs the two meals and heads upstairs.
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