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    (The story's been edited a little. I was near to falling asleep when I originally typed it up.)

    The back door of the Second Wind Inn groaned softly, an uncomfortable reminder that everything becomes a struggle beneath the auspices of time. Amon quietly exits through the door, his mind racing after the conversation with Abby. "You've no one to blame but yourself." he thought, aloud.

    He needed to find his center, and focus. The long trek to Port Avanthyr did nothing to ease his disquiet. Some wounds refuse balm. In the shadow of the temple's statue of Helm, Amon first practiced his katas, then turning to striking the practice dummies in impotent frustration.

    When he tired of the exercises, he seated himself. Amon close his eyes, controlling his breathing in a manner he had a thousand times before. Stilling his mind the Sacred Fist sought nothing but his sense of self. He could feel the prickly beads of sweat upon the base of his neck, the subtle aches of recent exertions...

    17 years ago

    The weather was pleasant that day. Amon was seven; it seemed a lifetime ago by human reckoning. Amon yawned, as he stared at the expertly written work before him. The tedium of his studies were like a sleeping enchantment! Sensing Amon's growing disinterest, his tutor allowed the boy a brief reprieve. "Return by next bell." she said, with a noticeable tone of annoyance. Amon smiled and agreed, but truthfully had other plans. The slave quarters were off-limits, but he had found they were ideal for hiding from unwanted attentions, such as a dreadfully boring day of studies. The boy longed for a playmate; someone to share the wonderment of childhood adventures. But his father was a solitary man, only given to keep company when his business necessitated, or for the operations of his home.

    Amon quietly crept down the stone stairwell, peering over the enclosed handrails. No one was around; they never were by this hour. The taskmaster would have taken any slaves out for training, leaving the quarters empty and as foreboding as any ancient ruin to a lonely child with an adventurous spirit. The boy smiled, plotting his mischief. You can imagine the boy nearly soiling himself when a timid and girlish voice squeaked out "Who are you?" from behind. He quickly whirled around to face a girl near his age. She was slight of frame, though not in a malnourished way, dark of hair and eye, with a complexion a shade or two darker than his own. She had a beautiful, if curious smile.

    "I'm Amon," he said, "I live here." She looked him over in disbelief, "How come I've never seen you before?" "Father doesn't let me out, much." he replied with a frown. She seemed to mull this over before asking "Wanna play Dungeons & Dragons?" The prospect of a playmate excited him so much, he replied "Sure!" without really thinking. He frown at her. "What's wrong?" she asked. "I don't really know how to play that game." he said with a certain amount of trepidation. She giggled, "It's a make-believe game! There's no rules. Here, I'll show you. You be a Red Wizard, and I'll be your brave Thayan Knight." Amon smiled, nodding in agreement, "Ok! What should we do?"

    The girl turned her head sideways and gave a perplexed expression, "I don't know, Master, I am but your lowly servant!" she said, taking a knee before him. Something deep within gnawed at Amon's stomach. He sensed an innate wrongness to this, and tried to ignore the queasiness. After all, he finally had someone to play with. Not wanting to be a spoil-sport, he feigned a haughty air, "Arise, my knight, and protect me from...that evil goblin!" He pointed at an imaginary enemy. The girl charged, miming a sword-fight with a goblin. "Master!" she cried with a mock sense of urgency, "I beg of you, lend me your magicks so that I might slay this hateful thing!"

    He smiled, and said as if he couldn't be bothered, "Oh, alright." He still had a slight sense of unease at being referred to as Master. Before, Amon had never given much thought to the slave-master paradigm; things just were as they were. He now realized a part of him didn't like it, but what could he do about it? He was just a stupid kid. He continued to play along, murmuring some gibberish and waving his hands in faux somatic components. "I give you the strength of a Hill Giant! Strike down this enemy, my knight!" The Thayan Knight fought on with renewed vigor, slaying the goblin menace. "We've won!" she cheered, returning to kneel before Amon, "Thanks to your magicks and my steel, we were victorious."

    She looked up at Amon with a genuine smile, and he found himself returning the same. They continued their imaginary adventures, losing track of time. At some point, exhausted by their games, the two children laid down together near the foot of the stairs, and drifted off to sleep...

    "What's the meanin' o' dis!?" The taskmaster's uncultured tongue boomed like the rage of Talos, ripping the two children from their slumber. They cowered before the taskmaster as they awoke, and he snatched the slave girl away from Amon. "Seval! Got get the Master!" he barked at another servant before turning his eyes on another willowy slave. Amon could see she was probably the girl's mother. "I thought ya said she was sick!?" said the taskmaster in a hateful tone as he yanked up the slave girl. The mother seemed to shrink as she cowered, "She was, milord! I--" "Enough outta you!" the taskmaster snarled. Still shaken by the abruptness of it all, Amon cast a wide glance just in time to see his Seval returning, followed by his tutor, and Minori (his father's majordomo). Half a heartbeat later, his father descended the staircase.

    "There you are! We've been looking all over for you!" the tutor said with what seemed to be concern. Amon's father wore the same severe expression he often had when receiving unwanted news. "What happened?" he asked in his soft basso. "Found 'em layin' out with this'un 'ere!" he jerked the slave girl around, again, to display her before Amon's father. A look of disgust scowled across his father's face, "Is this true, son?" "We were just playing, father!" Amon entreated, a tremble in his voice. The look on his father's face turned to anger, and perhaps a certain sadness. "Seval," he said without taking his eyes off Amon, "Beat the girl." Seval dutifully stepped forward, unfurling his whip as the taskmaster released the girl.

    "Nooooo!" the mother screeched, throwing herself forward. But on the orders of the taskmaster, the other slaves held her fast. The slave girl looked to Amon for help, but he could do nothing more than look on, terrified. She found her feet beneath her and made to escape to her mother, but the first lash of Seval's whip swept her legs from under her. The girl collided, bodily, with the stone floor with a sickening thud.

    And then the lashes fell.

    The girl screamed with her mother, their voices a cacophony of pain and terror, given an operatic resonance of the slave quarter's enclosure. Amon watched in sympathetic misery as each lash opened not only the girl's threadbare clothes, but her young and flawless flesh. Somewhere after the twentieth lash, the girl mercifully lost consciousness, and her mother's voice was spent, reduced to hoarse sobbing and croaks. Amon looked to his father, who it had seemed never taken his eyes off his son. He still wore the same angry and sad expression. "That's enough, Seval." he said in a tone that brooked no further protest. The mother broke away, crawling to her fallen child, immediately cradling her in a loving embrace. "...my baby...my poor, sweet baby..." she said just above a whisper.

    Amon's father turned to the tutor, "Get my son up to bed. Now." he said before looking to Seval and the taskmaster. "Beat the woman, too." Then he ascended the stairs from the slave's quarters, followed by Minori, Amon, and his tutor. When he looked back, the last thing Amon could see was the taskmaster unfurling his own whip while pulling the mother away from the slave girl. She didn't even struggle.

    As the slave girl slipped out of her mother's arms, she was as limp as a wet noodle.

    The mother was flung to the ground as the taskmaster and Seval began to obey the will of their Master. Amon was led out of the slave quarters with the silent screams of the beaten mother in his ears.
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    The Suspire

    suspire [səˈspaɪə]
    vb Archaic or poetic
    1. to sigh or utter with a sigh; yearn
    2. (intr) to breathe; respire
    [from Latin suspīrāre to take a deep breath, from sub- + spīrāre to breathe]
    suspiration [ˌsʌspɪˈreɪʃən] n


    11 years ago...

    Amon's fists rained down blows upon the fallen boy beneath him. "Thief! How dare you violate Helm's hallowed halls?" The boy beneath had gone limp when Amon raised his right hand skyward and prepared to commend this hateful cur to whatever Hell awaited him. All the anger of his childhood returned, all the pain that had brought him to this moment welled up within. Amon would strike true. But his hand would not move; something held it fast.

    The young monk turned his eyes upon a massive gauntlet's fingers, which had fastened an unbreakable grip around the entire length of his forearm. Amon followed the armored arm to see a giant suit of armor with a perfect polish, the helm of the armor denying the face of the being wearing it. But the young monk knew who held his arm. He knew it in his soul as soon as he laid eyes upon the figure. The Vigilant One, himself, had stopped him.

    A deep basso voce rumbled from within the armor, "Protect the weak, the poor, the injured..." "...and the young." Amon said softly, his eyes turning downward and shutting in shame. Tears came, unbidden. "I'm sorry..." he whispered, and when he managed to force his eyes open, he saw that it was the most Revered Elder who held his arm in his withered, ancient grasp. The old monk turned his blind eyes upon the younger with the same stoic patience he had always shown.

    The Revered Elder had gotten out of his death bed and walked all the way across the Monastery to be here. By this time, most of the other monks were present in the hallway. "Come, Amon." said the Elder, "I sense you have much to meditate upon." He released the young monk's arm and spoke softly to others in the hallway, "See to the thief's wounds." Like a small dinghy caught in the wake of a massive cargo ship, Amon followed the Revered Elder back to his room.

    Midway of the hall, the Revered Elder was taken by a coughing fit and nearly collapsed. Amon rushed to his side, offering to help his mentor to the bedroom. When they arrived at the Elder's room, the young monk made to help the Elder into his bed. "You are troubled." the Elder said as if it commenting that fire was hot. Amon was still confused, and decided to keep the bit about seeing Helm to himself, "If you hadn't stopped me, I would have beaten him to death."

    The Elder smiled up at the young monk and spoke softly, "I'm an old man, with one foot in the grave, Amon. You are young and strong. Had you wished to fell the last blow, I could not have stopped you." Amon frowned at the implication of impending death, but he could not argue the logic. The only possible way the Elder could have held Amon was through the will of Helm. And then, the young monk told him what had happened.

    That night, Amon had heard the call. It was his suspire; his first breath into a new life. The young monk had told his Elder that he would leave the Monastery and seek to blend the Way he had learned with the Way he had been called to. The Revered Elder confided that he had never heard of any who accomplished such a feat, but that he hoped Amon found what he was looking for. The Revered Elder was dead before sunrise.

    But that wasn't the last time Amon would see him...
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