The air is the first thing to seep into her mind. Each breath takes in a heavy and stale miasma reeking with pain, despair, and horror; this, however, only serves as a backdrop to the cries assaulting her ears, each wail of misery building atop each other and piercing her mind like needles. She claps her hands to her ears, but she can still hear their screams in her head, multiplying, pressing her down underneath their suffering, because they are also her own.
She is here, yet also there, both standing before and within the great wall stretching out before her. It was a wall with no end to its height or distance, an ugly, grey thing stretching across the pale horizon like a massive, bloated worm...if worms had moving, screaming faces bubbling from their flesh, features twisted in an eternal rictus of pain, contorted hands dripping greenish mold and fluids reaching out in supplication, only to be clawed back and replaced by other faces, other hands. Even as she watches, she can feel the weight and pain of her own self being crushed amidst all these other beings, all scrambling to have a distinct voice and identity to evade their fate, only to have their cries blend into other faces and voices, nameless and devoid of self, to writhe in their crucifix of torment, reserved for those who swear allegiance to no god.
Slowly, but surely, she feels herself drawn to this wall, to the other her dissolving there, a feeling not unlike being at the edge of a cliff while battered by a screaming gale. She resists, pushing herself as far back as she could, but she knows, deep in the part that remains lucid, that mere resistance will not suffice. She could feel herself merging, the suffering and horror of her devoured self becoming more real, more oppressive, like a specter given form.
Then she stops. Out of the corner of her eye is a glow of pale green, filling her with new fear. She turns to face the source, a green flame pulsating softly like a heartbeat, its light somehow warding the force trying to pull her into the wall. It pulses and whispers in a voice filled with promise, and though she could not hear the words being spoken, she could feel the fear building in her heart until there was nothing left: no wall, no misery weighing her down; just her, the green flame, and the fear. Yet, instead of overwhelming her, the fear seems to come and go, goading her to run and take it in her hands and mold it as a weapon.
As if on cue, green flame bursts from her hands, taking the shape of a large sword. In her grasp, it is a cold, reassuring thing, caressing her with knowledge, direction, and power. Wielding this flame, nothing would stop her. She would impose the order she always wanted, and her might will sunder the heavens, and all would shudder as she walks. And all she needed to do was one little thing, one tiny thing, a thing that would be so easy for her to do.
She hesitates.
The flame pulses before her.
She shakes her head.
Green flame caresses her calloused hands, a last promise before it fades away...as well as the void protecting her.
The agony, horror, and torment crashes down upon her, and she is now fully into the wall, ground down to nameless obscurity, the weight of countless damned souls gradually dissolving her mind, her will, her very self until there is no more need for reason, just the screaming and suffering--
--And she is still screaming as she wakes up.
She is here, yet also there, both standing before and within the great wall stretching out before her. It was a wall with no end to its height or distance, an ugly, grey thing stretching across the pale horizon like a massive, bloated worm...if worms had moving, screaming faces bubbling from their flesh, features twisted in an eternal rictus of pain, contorted hands dripping greenish mold and fluids reaching out in supplication, only to be clawed back and replaced by other faces, other hands. Even as she watches, she can feel the weight and pain of her own self being crushed amidst all these other beings, all scrambling to have a distinct voice and identity to evade their fate, only to have their cries blend into other faces and voices, nameless and devoid of self, to writhe in their crucifix of torment, reserved for those who swear allegiance to no god.
Slowly, but surely, she feels herself drawn to this wall, to the other her dissolving there, a feeling not unlike being at the edge of a cliff while battered by a screaming gale. She resists, pushing herself as far back as she could, but she knows, deep in the part that remains lucid, that mere resistance will not suffice. She could feel herself merging, the suffering and horror of her devoured self becoming more real, more oppressive, like a specter given form.
Then she stops. Out of the corner of her eye is a glow of pale green, filling her with new fear. She turns to face the source, a green flame pulsating softly like a heartbeat, its light somehow warding the force trying to pull her into the wall. It pulses and whispers in a voice filled with promise, and though she could not hear the words being spoken, she could feel the fear building in her heart until there was nothing left: no wall, no misery weighing her down; just her, the green flame, and the fear. Yet, instead of overwhelming her, the fear seems to come and go, goading her to run and take it in her hands and mold it as a weapon.
As if on cue, green flame bursts from her hands, taking the shape of a large sword. In her grasp, it is a cold, reassuring thing, caressing her with knowledge, direction, and power. Wielding this flame, nothing would stop her. She would impose the order she always wanted, and her might will sunder the heavens, and all would shudder as she walks. And all she needed to do was one little thing, one tiny thing, a thing that would be so easy for her to do.
She hesitates.
The flame pulses before her.
She shakes her head.
Green flame caresses her calloused hands, a last promise before it fades away...as well as the void protecting her.
The agony, horror, and torment crashes down upon her, and she is now fully into the wall, ground down to nameless obscurity, the weight of countless damned souls gradually dissolving her mind, her will, her very self until there is no more need for reason, just the screaming and suffering--
--And she is still screaming as she wakes up.
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