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  • #16
    Alaric's Journal, Book 3

    Alaric’s Journal,
    Book 3
    Entry 1
    (( Part 1 ))

    I am running out of hope. I know not how long we have been on the road. My goal is seemingly out of reach, despite how long I have wandered towards it. I know not where I am.

    I fear I may die out here, in the cold. There is naught to do now but pray, and write what I can, so that others may avoid my mistakes.

    If you are reading this, it is either because I have shown you the journal myself, you have found it upon my corpse, or it is in a library. I doubt the last one, for I am not a scholar of great note. I am a warrior, and people know me as such.

    Ah, I lie. People knew me as a drunken fool. An idiot, a headstrong bastard who kept his past secret, much like the rest of that land I think of now. It is a wonderful, if dangerous, land. It deserves better than what it has now.
    I will, for the first time in the history of my journals, write down my complete and total past. As much as I can remember, that is.

    My name is Nikolai Alaric the Younger, Son of Nikolai Alaric the Elder, Son of Alexander Alaric, Son of Jaime Alaric, who is the originator of my family tree.
    Jaime is the first noble of my family, knighted after a heated battle against an invading tribe of orcs from the North, where the true roots of my family lie. He and his were chased out of the north and down towards the relative safety of Waterdeep.

    Waterdeep, the city of splendor, of indulgence. I grew up in a small village, north of Waterdeep. The lands there were granted to Jaime after he aided the defense of Waterdeep so long ago. Our people settled there, and built a town out of nothing in the midst of the woods. The climate was much like what they were used to, if a bit warmer.

    The manor they built still stands today, though it has been renovated a few times. No, it is not a castle. It is, like with most lesser nobles, a manor. It did not even have a wall around it, until recently. The land is not wanted for its goods, and the main export is timber.

    My childhood was relatively normal, for a nobleman. I was born in the middle of the winter, with no complications. I am the only male heir to my family. I had two sisters, but they, like so many, failed to survive past the infant stage of life. Sickness took them early, and returned them to the Gods.

    Ah, the Gods. I had not much exposure to religion, to be honest. My father was a worshiper of Hoar, and my mother of Ilmater, but I chose to abstain from choosing a god at all until later in life. Much, much later.

    Around eight years of age, I started training to become a knight. The first ‘rank’ of knighthood, if you would, is page. That involves serving the table, aiding with putting your Lord’s armor on, practicing fighting in the yards every morning, learning to ride a horse, archery, and so forth.

    My Lord, as it were, was actually my father. That was, also, normal, for sons to be their father’s page. As was it normal that when I turned about fourteen, I was sent off to be another knight’s Squire.

    A squire is the next rank up from page. You accompany your lord into battle, learn to fight in armor, to lance, to joust. Ah, Jousting, the noble sport. It is quite violent, to be fair, and I’ve never actually been to more than one tourney.

    The Lord I was sent off to squire for was an elderly knight by the name of Sir Jorn. He held slightly more land than my father, making him slightly more powerful. Twice we rode off to battle, both times in the spring, both times against orcs that came from the north. Frequent are the attacks that they make, because of the rather, well, populated and wealthy roads.
    Both times, I was injured. I am ashamed to say that I was not, and still am not, the best at horseback riding. I was knocked off my horse in both occasions, at any rate. The injuries were minor, but the scars stay with me, and I learn from these mistakes.

    The heavy armor of a knight is not for a squire. Most of the time, I wore a simple chain shirt, with maybe a breastplate over top and a ‘pot’ helmet. Chainmail, as many know, is best not for arrows, but for slashing attacks; They have issues cutting your skin, and so instead, simply bruise you.
    Why I am explaining the armor and combat, I know not. Needless to say, I had a rather normal childhood for a lesser noble.

    I was knighted at the age of twenty, or perhaps nineteen. I then went home to my father, settling down with my parents.

    I never took the time to get to know the villagers, which is my own fault. I was constantly expecting war, and so constantly training. Many the day I spent on horseback, trying to become better at that fighting style, to make sure I had no weaknesses. But mounted combat, it seems, has died out. It is no longer needed, with the introduction of powerful magic wards. Upon learning that, I simply focused on my ground skills.

    It was at a tourney, during a sword fight, when I first met the women who would become my wife. Her name was Angela Graile. I could not describe her beauty if I wanted too. Such is the tragedy of our marriage that even the simple effort of writing her name brings me to tears. She was the perfect women, and I the wrong man for her. In the end, I brought nothing but ruin, and despair.

    No. No, I will continue my tale. I met her at that tourney, and the distraction of staring at her caused me to lose the fight. Afterwards, she gave me her favor. A simple, white silk scarf. And yet, with it, I could not fail. I went on to win the tourney in her name, and to marry her later that year, after a rather long courtship, and a dispute with her father.

    Sir Graile was not a lesser noble. In fact, he was a major land-owner and a powerful knight in his hay-day. But he had many daughters, and I promised I was not after any of his land at all. I married her, with a simple bag of gold as her dowry.

    But the money was not needed at all. In fact, it went to my father, who spent it upon something that I can’t recall for the life of me. Perhaps the townsfolk? I don’t know.

    Those were the happiest times of my life. Many the nights we would just walk in the woods surrounding the village, and talk. Endlessly talk, of everything. And talking was not everything we did, but such things are indecent to write about in ones’ journal. Needless to say, we had children.

    The first son we had was Nikolai the Third. I am not creative with names. But I digress; He was a healthy lad, and lived to the age of five before disease took him.

    Along with him, I lost two daughters, Angela the Younger, and Elizabeth, both dead at birth. And then, Alec was born.

    He was always a sickly child, and I feared the worst for him. But as time passed, he grew healthier. He managed to survive, being three at the time of Nikolai’s death. By the time I was thirty, he was seven, and perfectly healthy. He had survived the harsh early years, and blossomed into a perfect child.
    He excelled at the sword lessons I gave him, and was a good eye with a bow. He rode a horse better than me.

    All the while that I was training him, and myself, for whatever troubles might come, trouble brewed in Waterdeep.

    Rumor had spread about how I was apparently Faithless. I had, indeed, not chosen a god. But they viewed me as a threat, stating that I was secretly a Banite, or worse. I could not convince them otherwise, for they seemed to have rock-solid proof.

    And so I was, for the first time, banished, until such time that I came back with a proper god.

    It was a long and treacherous ride to Sundren, when I chose to go. Sundren is the new land, the land I spoke of before. It was the perfect place to find religion, to find glory, money, anything.

    I went with few personal possessions. I took a locket with the portraits of my wife and child upon the inside, and a bag of gold. I acquired a suit of armor at Port Avanthyr, and a sword.

    As best I can tell, it was by now that my wife, child, father, and mother had been killed. The man who killed them was another noble, who wished for more land, and more power. He has been dealt with now. Entries in my first journal, which I have lost now, explain more as to the matter.

    My first adventures in Sundren were rather uneventful. I fought goblins, orcs, much like back in Waterdeep. I searched for a god. When I thought that, perhaps, I had found one, I tried to return home.
    I came back to changed land.

    Waterdeep was no longer friendly to me. Many viewed me still as a Banite, or worse. But, I thought, perhaps my family would be more welcoming. I took to the road, and headed to the family manor.

    The doors were barred. The windows were covered with planks. The villagers wore black, and hid their faces from me.

    Not long later, I learned the horrible truth. My family had been murdered in my absence. All of them, shot or stabbed, by a single man.

    I know not what happened next, but I soon found that I was standing over the body of a human, I think, that had been cut into pieces.

    It has been speculated that, because of my families origins, I had gone into a sort of berserker rage. I couldn’t control my body, being completely taken over by the anger. But that is no excuse for killing a man.
    I was sentenced to permanent exile. This time, I took more with me. Armor, my sword; things that I had left behind. Things that I would have needed, to protect Waterdeep.

    I left my father’s armor, though I had wanted to bring it, because they would not tell me where his crypt was. I know now it is because they feared I would try to bring them back, in my grief, and take further revenge. But I would never do such a thing.

    I returned to Sundren. I took up drinking, and slowly degraded from the once-proud Knight I was, into a drunken mercenary who didn’t give a rat’s ass for anyone.

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    • #17
      (( Part 2))

      Excuse my language, but it is how I write it. That was how I acted, how I was in general. I would swear at members of the Triumvirate, rant to random people, I associated myself with murderers and vampires. I sold my skills for money.
      Long was I in such a state, that I became the failure that you know now today. I neglected my training; I wasted all the money I had on booze and food, instead of repairs. I ranted and raved, I went looking for my own death, I put people in danger for selfish reasons.

      I went from an honorable man, to a drunken bum whom nobody associated with, willingly.

      Oh, I suppose that’s not fair. Plenty of people tried to change my ways, though they all failed in the end. The ones that had the most effect upon me, were the Cleric of Helm, and Das Ju’ent, a mage. They aided me in tracking down my armor, which I had sold. They helped me regain what I had lost, and express myself.

      But I was scared to change. Voices had started to talk to me, in my loneliness. I could hear my family, in their final moments. I could hear gods, whispering for me to kill someone, or to defend another. To do something. To do nothing. To do everything.

      Were they really gods? Or was I simply insane? I think it was more the booze, because gods would not associate themselves with me. No, not even now, after everything, would they associate themselves with me.

      I disappeared from Sundren, following a caravan into the north, to Icewind Dale. It was, in the end, to escape change, and to stay on the path of self-destruction. I tore down my own morals. I stopped accepting that I had friends. I stopped…

      I stopped caring. In fact, I had no friends at all. I have no friends now, if I must be honest; most of the people who talked to me did it simply to provoke an answer, or in response to something stupid that I said.
      Das would have been a friend, and the Cleric, if ever they had shown themselves after that. But they didn’t, and so I fell into a self-loathing despair. I drank my troubles away. I drowned myself in alcohol, in hopes to drown the voices, to drown the despair, to stop myself from caring.

      Nothing worked. I couldn’t stop the troubles of Sundren from disturbing me. I thought it was simply because of the Legion and the Triumvirate, and their lack of doing their job; but it wasn’t. It was because there are more like me, more people who didn’t care. They would allow vampires to be seen at public places, instead of chasing them off.

      My personal prejudices were more important to me than the defense of Sundren. More than once I blatantly assaulted someone because of their beliefs, or their race. Once, I even attacked physically.

      I was a fool. But I was starting to think again. Sundren has many issues. I went to the mountains in the north, to clear my head. A woman, December Augustine, accompanied me. Or, I think that was her name. It has been so long now…

      She held that there was something I could do, that I had potential, if I would just see it in myself. I was speculative, I suppose. I didn’t believe I was worth anything more than the money I had people pay me for my services.

      But I started to change, after that trip. I started looking again for a god, researching. I started to stop charging people for my services. I wrote a new code for myself to follow, though I have since changed it.

      So long I spent in despair, however, that it was a slow change. There are many things’ that I have yet to resolve about myself, many problems that need answering.

      But I know now that I have indeed changed, and that I am going to continue to change.

      I have plans, if one would believe me, about how this will happen. But I will not state them, not now.

      At any rate, the time came when I was approached by a man claiming to be from the village I grew up in. He said that the people were suffering, and that I should head back, should help them.

      I gave it no second thought. I dropped everything, left my original journal behind, and sped south. It was foolish!

      Why did I believe him? Or trust those villagers?

      It came back to bite me, excuse me language, on my ass.

      They betrayed me. I trained them, thinking they would help me recover my father’s armor, my family land. But no, they turned against me, and rebelled against their lord. The law was overthrown. And then they tried to kill me.
      I survived, barely, by the grace of a few. They sent me south, where I was healed and went back, upon rumors of a new orc invasion.

      I aided them in protecting the village, only to be captured by forces sent from Waterdeep and exiled again.

      I went north, back towards Sundren. No boats would take me to Port Avanthyr, however, in Neverwinter.

      I had to take the long way, following a road up to the Gates of the Sunderer.
      It has been long, and tiresome, and now I fear I will freeze to death without ever gazing upon that blessed land again. I miss it, for it is my home now.
      The Gods don’t like me. I know this to be true, now. They see in me something that offends. They wish to torture me, to take everything from me. They expect me to give up.

      But I will not.

      I will see Sundren again. I will go, and I will aid them in their troubles. They will not love me, they may hate me. But I am used to hate, and I will accept it, and I will not let them change my path. I am a knight.

      I am an exile, an outcast. Few friends have I, and yet, I will protect them with my life if need be. I will protect all with my life, even if they try to betray me.

      That is my duty. My duty to the land, as a knight, to protect and serve, to enforce the laws, to destroy public enemies.
      I am the last of my line. I previously thought that all I wanted was to be remembered, to be known throughout the land. But is that what I want?
      No, it isn’t. I have nothing now, but myself. And yet, I have a goal, I have my ideals. These will live on past me, even if I am to perish in the end. I will not live, I know.

      I have accepted death, I have accepted all outcomes. I have a duty, and I will follow it.


      With respect, I now look to the paladins of the Triumvirate as an example. Selflessly they put their lives on the line, protecting and guarding that fair land from an evil that is many times greater in force. And I look to the Legion, with its brave men and women, holding the orcs and rebels at bay, despite heavy losses on most fronts.

      I will become like them, the faceless protectors of the land. That is my goal.
      My code, which I will follow as closely as I can, is one of honor, of chivalry. A noble’s duty to the peasants of the land is to insure their safety and prosperity.

      I will never harm a child, or an innocent. I will follow the laws laid by the government of the country. I will never let greed, or lust, sway me from my goals. I will protect those that do not have the ability to protect themselves. I will never defend a corrupt government or one that choses to harm its own people. I will show mercy and honor towards my enemies.

      I will shed my blood for this country. I will not let my friends’ blood be shed, if I should draw breath. I will follow this code, and I will insure that my blade is never used for evil.

      This I have said out loud, with the Gods as my witness. My code, bound to my life and honor.

      The situation I am in is, however, doubtful. Snow has blocked the road towards the Gates, and I am kept at bay, defending the caravan from raiders. Our supplies run low.

      How simple it would be, to leave them and go on alone! And yet, I cannot. My code will not let me. This is one of the few moments I have had to actually write down my thoughts.

      How peaceful snow seems, and yet it is dangerous. It is thick, and one cannot see farther than ten feet from the caravan.

      It gives me more time to collect my thoughts, however. More time to prepare myself for the troubles I will face in Sundren.

      My past, and my plans, I have listed here.

      When I was a young boy, my father took me into the city, as he prepared for war. I saw the army marching past there, going to fight a group of orcs. My father looked at me, and said, “My son, when you group up, will you be a savior of the weak? Or will you become one of the demons that assail us? I won’t always be here to guide you, and instruct you on what to do. You will have to make your own decisions, for better or for worst. But know that I will always be proud of you.”

      Sometimes I get the feeling that he is watching over me, and smiling. He must be proud of what I have become, now. His memory will carry on within me.
      I won’t explain. I’m just a man, I’m not a hero. But I don’t care. I’ll carry on, and I will face these enemies, and I will prevail or die. Sundren will be better off either way. Every small dent made into the forces of the enemy, every small sacrifice counts in the end.

      Ghosts follow me, and watch my movement. Memories haunt me, of mistakes made that cannot be undone.

      I have made enemies out of powerful allies. I have wronged my family name, all out of selfish despair.

      And yet, I have changed. Or, rather, reverted back to what I was, in the beginning.

      This is the longest entry I have yet made, I suppose. I will end it here. And though I have little hope for my own future, I have hope for the rest of the world.

      The world will try to break me, but it will never take my heart.

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      • #18
        Alaric's Journal

        Book 3

        Entry 2

        It seems like it's been months since I last made an entry; But I know it's only been a few days, at most. I am in Sundren once more.

        I am cold, tired, and hungry; but I am here, none the less.

        Gods, how cold I am! All the snow, and wind..

        But that is behind me. First things first. I am going off to find myself some place to warm up, to thaw. And maybe a mug of ale.

        No, no, no. I've given up alcohol, haven't I? I will instead get some.. a warm drink.

        A bowl of stew would be lovely. Warm stew in a bowl.

        Ah, but I must look a mess! Perhaps I ought to shave first?

        So many things to do.

        Sundren, I am hardly anything to you. I know you have gotten on without me, and with good cause I have nothing to fear; and that I will make little mark upon you.

        But Gods be damned if I don't try.

        Cutting this entry short. Found a ride into town. Expect more soon.

        (( Back from my hiatus! Huzzah ! And I mean it this time! Took a while to find a damn CD.. ))

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