Korah was born to a single mother. This is maybe a typical happening when your father is a scoundrel, or at least that is what Korah's mother would tell her of her father. Korah's life was just beginning, but it only takes a beginning to bring about a horrid end.
It was apparent to all who knew, Korah's mother had issues that remained abundant all her years. Perhaps Korah's father was not a scoundrel but a man who could not bare to stand by Korah's mother any longer. The spite she laid upon Korah is immeasurable, echoes of her own feelings towards herself. Worthless, foolish, weak, pathetic, words that Korah knew all too well and would hear constantly. The love of a mother for her daughter...
Korah did not enjoy the company of others. She did not run to play with the other children where she lived. She did not walk in the woods with her friends, or study with like-minded individuals. She would find sanctuary, only alone away from others. Why would she need anyone else when she was content in herself?
It was that dark day that it started. Korah stood before her mother, but her face betrayed no emotions. It was almost as if she could no longer hear her mother's screaming. Her mother beat upon her, which was not uncommon. It generally would continue until the right combination of... something... cooled her mother's rage. This time, however, that something did not come and the anger continued flow through her mother. Beaten, slapped, hair being pulled, Korah was being attacked, this time, it was not the same...
Korah's face was lowered to the ground. She could not bare to look at her mother. The world was becomming muffled to her and all she could hear was an inner voice, a voice that seemed to speak out on it's own...
"I hate you..."
Korah muttered the words quietly but still her mother heard.
"You ungrateful brat! How dare you speak these words to me!"
Her mother struck her again in the face. She would beat the insolence out from Korah's flesh if she had to. However, Korah had tears in her eyes but did not cry. She had fear, but did not faulter. The rage and hate inside began to awaken in her a strength that she would later come to rely on to survive. Her mother despised it.
"I gave you life, and -this- is how you repay me? You and that wretched father of yours!"
Korah's gaze grew cold, her teeth clenched. She picked up the knife from the table as she walked towards her mother. She clenched it tightly, pointing it outwards from her side. Slowly she moved towards her mother...
"Korah... What are you doing?!"
Her mother backed against the wall with a fear that shrowded her face. She held out her hand hoping that maybe she could stop Korah, somehow. Korah swung at her mother's hand, slicing into the unprotected flesh. Her mother pulled her hand back, now terrified of her daughter.
"I'm your mother! Korah stop!"
Korah struck deep into her mother's abdomen and a moaning grunt came from her mother's voice as Korah pushed deeper. Her mother, fighting to push Korah away, but too weak to struggle. The pain had sapped what force she could muster.
Korah spoke the words quietly to her mother, "You gave me life... I take yours..."
Over and over Korah stabbed and slashed as her mother pleaded and begged for mercy. No mercy was there to give. Korah's heart had become callus. Never did any care for her, and never did she care for any. Love is not a natural occurence, it is developed and nurtured. There was no nurturing for Korah so only hate was allowed to grow. Where her mother could have brought her up to be kind, she was only beat and struck. Where words could have kindled happiness, she was terrorized with bitterness. Her mother's imbalance became her imbalance.
Korah stood over the mutilated body of her mother with a sense of satisfaction. She spit on the cadavre one last time, cursing her existence and her death. Then came the paranoia...
Korah's eyes shifted about herself. She knew someone would care, somewhere. She knew they would come to find her, and she could not kill them all. Regardless of why, they would want attonement for the life spilled. They would want to kill poor Korah. Poor, innocent, Korah. She took up her robe and ran from the city. Into the woods, into the meadows, into the sanctuaries of the world. She would not return, even on pain of death, she could not return to the cities. This 12 year old girl had become a murderer and she knew it. Was it only for the one time? Could she wash this sin away and be made clean?
Deep in the woods, Korah stirred for years. Alone before this time, but never as this. Korah only found comfort in the whispers that became louder only after she stood by herself. Whispers from a darkness before her. She would see the eyes as she stared into the blazes as they turned black, staring back at her. The words unclear, but still she listened.
Power, strength, destruction, they were offered to her. Korah would have a companion, to watch over her life, and ask nothing in return save for Korah to always listen when whispered to. Of course she would listen...
It was apparent to all who knew, Korah's mother had issues that remained abundant all her years. Perhaps Korah's father was not a scoundrel but a man who could not bare to stand by Korah's mother any longer. The spite she laid upon Korah is immeasurable, echoes of her own feelings towards herself. Worthless, foolish, weak, pathetic, words that Korah knew all too well and would hear constantly. The love of a mother for her daughter...
Korah did not enjoy the company of others. She did not run to play with the other children where she lived. She did not walk in the woods with her friends, or study with like-minded individuals. She would find sanctuary, only alone away from others. Why would she need anyone else when she was content in herself?
It was that dark day that it started. Korah stood before her mother, but her face betrayed no emotions. It was almost as if she could no longer hear her mother's screaming. Her mother beat upon her, which was not uncommon. It generally would continue until the right combination of... something... cooled her mother's rage. This time, however, that something did not come and the anger continued flow through her mother. Beaten, slapped, hair being pulled, Korah was being attacked, this time, it was not the same...
Korah's face was lowered to the ground. She could not bare to look at her mother. The world was becomming muffled to her and all she could hear was an inner voice, a voice that seemed to speak out on it's own...
"I hate you..."
Korah muttered the words quietly but still her mother heard.
"You ungrateful brat! How dare you speak these words to me!"
Her mother struck her again in the face. She would beat the insolence out from Korah's flesh if she had to. However, Korah had tears in her eyes but did not cry. She had fear, but did not faulter. The rage and hate inside began to awaken in her a strength that she would later come to rely on to survive. Her mother despised it.
"I gave you life, and -this- is how you repay me? You and that wretched father of yours!"
Korah's gaze grew cold, her teeth clenched. She picked up the knife from the table as she walked towards her mother. She clenched it tightly, pointing it outwards from her side. Slowly she moved towards her mother...
"Korah... What are you doing?!"
Her mother backed against the wall with a fear that shrowded her face. She held out her hand hoping that maybe she could stop Korah, somehow. Korah swung at her mother's hand, slicing into the unprotected flesh. Her mother pulled her hand back, now terrified of her daughter.
"I'm your mother! Korah stop!"
Korah struck deep into her mother's abdomen and a moaning grunt came from her mother's voice as Korah pushed deeper. Her mother, fighting to push Korah away, but too weak to struggle. The pain had sapped what force she could muster.
Korah spoke the words quietly to her mother, "You gave me life... I take yours..."
Over and over Korah stabbed and slashed as her mother pleaded and begged for mercy. No mercy was there to give. Korah's heart had become callus. Never did any care for her, and never did she care for any. Love is not a natural occurence, it is developed and nurtured. There was no nurturing for Korah so only hate was allowed to grow. Where her mother could have brought her up to be kind, she was only beat and struck. Where words could have kindled happiness, she was terrorized with bitterness. Her mother's imbalance became her imbalance.
Korah stood over the mutilated body of her mother with a sense of satisfaction. She spit on the cadavre one last time, cursing her existence and her death. Then came the paranoia...
Korah's eyes shifted about herself. She knew someone would care, somewhere. She knew they would come to find her, and she could not kill them all. Regardless of why, they would want attonement for the life spilled. They would want to kill poor Korah. Poor, innocent, Korah. She took up her robe and ran from the city. Into the woods, into the meadows, into the sanctuaries of the world. She would not return, even on pain of death, she could not return to the cities. This 12 year old girl had become a murderer and she knew it. Was it only for the one time? Could she wash this sin away and be made clean?
Deep in the woods, Korah stirred for years. Alone before this time, but never as this. Korah only found comfort in the whispers that became louder only after she stood by herself. Whispers from a darkness before her. She would see the eyes as she stared into the blazes as they turned black, staring back at her. The words unclear, but still she listened.
Power, strength, destruction, they were offered to her. Korah would have a companion, to watch over her life, and ask nothing in return save for Korah to always listen when whispered to. Of course she would listen...
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