Deception, Part III; Truth, Part I
The paladin's gold-flecked gaze caught the flickering light from the hearth, the sunbursts about his pupils flaring as the scent and sound of burning, snapping wood teased him into reverie. He sat in the corner of his couch, arm braced atop one arm of the sofa, his head listing and resting in his hand. His chest barely swelled with each slow, measured breath, the warmth of the fire weighting his eyelids until they shrouded the paladin's azure sight.
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"Do you want me, or are you just trying to replace something you do?"
The woman's words had stung at the time, his intentions doubted, questioned. It wasn't so strange a notion; his fortitude had been questioned before, and often. No matter how many battles won, lives saved, there would always be questions. The Dragonslayer. The Demonslayer. The High Adjudicator. The Judicator of Wrath. Knight of the Merciful Sword. Titles earned justly, but titles don't have weight on every scale.
"I'm the youngest ranking officer in the history of the Legion; I'll be the youngest Centurio, maybe even Myrios, someday."
He wasn't sure what she was trying to prove to him. She spoke her titles like they gave her gravity, like she was to be respected, admired, trusted for bearing them. Perhaps he quietly rejected his lost nobility. Perhaps not. For whatever reason, her titles did not have weight on his scale. She told him things she shouldn't, things he couldn't forget, and when she'd finished, he sent her out.
She wanted to walk alongside him, to take his narrow path. She didn't understand, and it was time for her to stop thinking so. He sent her out.
In Aquor, a sun elf with eyes of liquid gold looked at him with adoration and could not think to judge him. She did not seek his path, but instead her own. He would help her find it, though he knew it would bend away from his. She smiled at his smiles, at his brief touches, in an innocent, fond way, charming but . . . naive.
He left her with a blue rose, an undying flower he'd found that offered vibrant color to her muted wardrobe. She had clutched it like a precious, fragile thing; she cherished his every gesture, and he wondered if when she said, "I love you," she understood it as he did, and if he could come to love her so simply, so innocently. Love was not something so easily nurtured and spoken for him; she expressed that affection, and he pondered what it would be like to love an elf, to age and die while his lover bloomed in persistent beauty and ever-growing wisdom. Would she cast him aside as he withered? Would she care for him as his body failed? As the winds of time first weathered flesh, would she slip away, to find someone new while he still had the health to do the same? Was he vain for thinking he had so long to live?
It is sad circumstance that paladins are not often long for the world. There is a zeal to protect the defenseless, to be the scourge that drives wickedness away. There is a careful balance to be struck with fearlessness, that two-sided boon that oppresses caution and prudence. It had yielded in him a sterner heart, one all but impossible to breach, to protect himself and those he might have been close to, had life not taken this course.
His mortality weighed down his spirit. Did he so enjoy life that he would regret its absence? He had lived a good life, at least exceptionally so for two of his twenty-six years; perhaps he had a home in Celestia, in the Just God's Court. No, other than his heart's lament that wickedness would remain in the world after his death, he could not define that weight in his chest. This musing stole his sleep some nights; where was the joyful heart his fellow paladins bore so proudly?
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His eyes fluttered open; the fire had waned and dimmed, casting wavering shadows about the chamber. The subtle luminescence of his skin shone softly in the darkness, the inner light often hidden by brighter sources than he. He sat in silence, tongues of flame occasionally defiantly licking upward over smoldering embers, rising only to die a moment after.
The source of his awakening sounded again: three gentle knocks at his door. Wrath Eternal stood silently, propped against the couch, and quietly asked for his hand. The paladin declined it, his pure heart telling him that no evil stood beyond his room. He collected the blade and its scabbard, strung with pearls and a brilliant emerald, and hung it near his armor stand, as always. The leather of his boots barely sounded as he crossed his carpeted threshold to the door from where no more sound came forth. He turned its knob easily and opened the door without greeting, the lateness of the hour lending him a speechless curiosity as he went to meet his visitor.
Dark, lustrous eyes lined with kohl met him.
The paladin's gold-flecked gaze caught the flickering light from the hearth, the sunbursts about his pupils flaring as the scent and sound of burning, snapping wood teased him into reverie. He sat in the corner of his couch, arm braced atop one arm of the sofa, his head listing and resting in his hand. His chest barely swelled with each slow, measured breath, the warmth of the fire weighting his eyelids until they shrouded the paladin's azure sight.
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"Do you want me, or are you just trying to replace something you do?"
The woman's words had stung at the time, his intentions doubted, questioned. It wasn't so strange a notion; his fortitude had been questioned before, and often. No matter how many battles won, lives saved, there would always be questions. The Dragonslayer. The Demonslayer. The High Adjudicator. The Judicator of Wrath. Knight of the Merciful Sword. Titles earned justly, but titles don't have weight on every scale.
"I'm the youngest ranking officer in the history of the Legion; I'll be the youngest Centurio, maybe even Myrios, someday."
He wasn't sure what she was trying to prove to him. She spoke her titles like they gave her gravity, like she was to be respected, admired, trusted for bearing them. Perhaps he quietly rejected his lost nobility. Perhaps not. For whatever reason, her titles did not have weight on his scale. She told him things she shouldn't, things he couldn't forget, and when she'd finished, he sent her out.
She wanted to walk alongside him, to take his narrow path. She didn't understand, and it was time for her to stop thinking so. He sent her out.
In Aquor, a sun elf with eyes of liquid gold looked at him with adoration and could not think to judge him. She did not seek his path, but instead her own. He would help her find it, though he knew it would bend away from his. She smiled at his smiles, at his brief touches, in an innocent, fond way, charming but . . . naive.
He left her with a blue rose, an undying flower he'd found that offered vibrant color to her muted wardrobe. She had clutched it like a precious, fragile thing; she cherished his every gesture, and he wondered if when she said, "I love you," she understood it as he did, and if he could come to love her so simply, so innocently. Love was not something so easily nurtured and spoken for him; she expressed that affection, and he pondered what it would be like to love an elf, to age and die while his lover bloomed in persistent beauty and ever-growing wisdom. Would she cast him aside as he withered? Would she care for him as his body failed? As the winds of time first weathered flesh, would she slip away, to find someone new while he still had the health to do the same? Was he vain for thinking he had so long to live?
It is sad circumstance that paladins are not often long for the world. There is a zeal to protect the defenseless, to be the scourge that drives wickedness away. There is a careful balance to be struck with fearlessness, that two-sided boon that oppresses caution and prudence. It had yielded in him a sterner heart, one all but impossible to breach, to protect himself and those he might have been close to, had life not taken this course.
His mortality weighed down his spirit. Did he so enjoy life that he would regret its absence? He had lived a good life, at least exceptionally so for two of his twenty-six years; perhaps he had a home in Celestia, in the Just God's Court. No, other than his heart's lament that wickedness would remain in the world after his death, he could not define that weight in his chest. This musing stole his sleep some nights; where was the joyful heart his fellow paladins bore so proudly?
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His eyes fluttered open; the fire had waned and dimmed, casting wavering shadows about the chamber. The subtle luminescence of his skin shone softly in the darkness, the inner light often hidden by brighter sources than he. He sat in silence, tongues of flame occasionally defiantly licking upward over smoldering embers, rising only to die a moment after.
The source of his awakening sounded again: three gentle knocks at his door. Wrath Eternal stood silently, propped against the couch, and quietly asked for his hand. The paladin declined it, his pure heart telling him that no evil stood beyond his room. He collected the blade and its scabbard, strung with pearls and a brilliant emerald, and hung it near his armor stand, as always. The leather of his boots barely sounded as he crossed his carpeted threshold to the door from where no more sound came forth. He turned its knob easily and opened the door without greeting, the lateness of the hour lending him a speechless curiosity as he went to meet his visitor.
Dark, lustrous eyes lined with kohl met him.
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