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I ain't anyfink special. I'm jus' some bloke. Sure, I know 'ow ta 'old a sword or two, who doesn't? But I ain't no adventurer. I ain't got the skill, or the guts. I'm jus' some bloke. A "crossbow guy", I guess. Ain't tha' brilliant at tha' either though, am I. My name's Sam, Samuel in full. Gutters fer bein' a gutter-child. A child o' fortune, if ya don' like tha' term. I ain't got no family worth speakin' of, an' I ain't no good at friends.
But I got friends arready. Against all probability, fer no reason I can make out, I got friends. I ain't sure 'ow tha' 'appened, and I ain't the foggiest how I fell in with folk like them. I mean, they're special, they're somebodys. Spell-slingers, they got money, they got weapons an' they know 'ow ta use 'em... well, maybe not right now fer Kaizen, but tha' ain't the point.
Anyhow, I trust 'em. Tha's the least I can do. Unfortunately it's maybe the best I can do too. They've got big, important problems, an' I ain't. I can' 'elp with tha' kinda thing. I'm jus' nobody. I ain't even got the guts to do anyfink. I feel like such a coward, but in a world like this, wha' else can an ordinary bloke be? Dead.
So I trust 'em, an' I really, really 'ope I ain't wrong in tha'. I jus' wish they could trust me. I ain't got a very good track record fer friends. It's all very well Arawen sayin' jus' ta be a friend... not only ain't tha' enough, I ain't even sure 'ow ta do tha'. Maybe ever'un's runnin' from summink, but ya can' get away from yerself.
Some part o' me ain't even 'appy about trustin' 'em. T'ain't a good idea, I can' 'elp but think... I can' mean anyfink ta them, an' they'll drop me sometime. Even if they don', gettin' mixed up in their problems is gonna be more'n I can 'andle. I ain't been this scared at night since... well, since I last din't 'ave any friends.
But I do 'ave friends. I gotta trust them if I'm gonna 'ave anyfink, an' I gotta do it right this time. No backin' out, no runnin' away... 'cept runnin' away from their fights prolly is the best thing ta do. No runnin' away an' startin' again then. No not comin' back. No hidin', gettin' drunk an' forgettin' 'em. No skippin' town, no rattin' 'em out, no betrayal.
Sounds like Kaizen's gotta whole lot more ta atone fer than me, an' if 'e can do all tha', I can manage my own petty problems. If nobody ain't too far gone ta deserve friends, tha' includes me. Worryin' ain't doin' nobody no good, an' ya need ta think 'appy thoughts if yer gonna get ahead.
But I got friends arready. Against all probability, fer no reason I can make out, I got friends. I ain't sure 'ow tha' 'appened, and I ain't the foggiest how I fell in with folk like them. I mean, they're special, they're somebodys. Spell-slingers, they got money, they got weapons an' they know 'ow ta use 'em... well, maybe not right now fer Kaizen, but tha' ain't the point.
Anyhow, I trust 'em. Tha's the least I can do. Unfortunately it's maybe the best I can do too. They've got big, important problems, an' I ain't. I can' 'elp with tha' kinda thing. I'm jus' nobody. I ain't even got the guts to do anyfink. I feel like such a coward, but in a world like this, wha' else can an ordinary bloke be? Dead.
So I trust 'em, an' I really, really 'ope I ain't wrong in tha'. I jus' wish they could trust me. I ain't got a very good track record fer friends. It's all very well Arawen sayin' jus' ta be a friend... not only ain't tha' enough, I ain't even sure 'ow ta do tha'. Maybe ever'un's runnin' from summink, but ya can' get away from yerself.
Some part o' me ain't even 'appy about trustin' 'em. T'ain't a good idea, I can' 'elp but think... I can' mean anyfink ta them, an' they'll drop me sometime. Even if they don', gettin' mixed up in their problems is gonna be more'n I can 'andle. I ain't been this scared at night since... well, since I last din't 'ave any friends.
But I do 'ave friends. I gotta trust them if I'm gonna 'ave anyfink, an' I gotta do it right this time. No backin' out, no runnin' away... 'cept runnin' away from their fights prolly is the best thing ta do. No runnin' away an' startin' again then. No not comin' back. No hidin', gettin' drunk an' forgettin' 'em. No skippin' town, no rattin' 'em out, no betrayal.
Sounds like Kaizen's gotta whole lot more ta atone fer than me, an' if 'e can do all tha', I can manage my own petty problems. If nobody ain't too far gone ta deserve friends, tha' includes me. Worryin' ain't doin' nobody no good, an' ya need ta think 'appy thoughts if yer gonna get ahead.